Monday, October 31, 2005
somethings wrong with me.. or so it seems..i dunno wat..hui mei kept asking me wat was wrong in school..she said that i was always spacing out and looking like something had gone wrong..then jean also said i looked really sad and not like last time when i was always smiling..another thing about walking into stuff..about 5-9 times a day.. noticed after my mum asked why i had so many bruises on my legs and i went huh?oh mann..my mum usually doesnt even notice when i have a huge cut across my leg..why did she notice this?been seriously daydreaming for the past few days..but why?no idea..somethings missing..thats what i keep thinking..but i always tell myself yea rite. i'll walways try to haf fun wif my frens..but lately they seem to be quite worried whenever im wif them..especially jean and hui mei and tiff..ah..hui mei..stop thinking im a sadist la..hais.life sucks..when u have mine.daily routine at night: lie down in the night and pretend to be asleep till 12+ then get up and think abt stuff which usually makes me cry..its super lame what i do..but it just happens..forget it i dunno but i cant get a particular song out of my head..uh...wont mention the name here.its a chinese song..by Jay Chou..so yea..maybe u wldn't noe it anyway..my dad is gonna murder me for my results...how can i reason with him?my mum speaks english and my dad speaks in chinese.brilliant isnt it?yeps..hell..i'd rather talk tothe wall than gen ta men liang ge jiang hua huo lian luo. summore my dad is frm Taiwan so his chinese is so called different in a way.tell me wat to do. this entry s not making the least bit of sense..jumping frm here to there with a little bit of everything and not having a trace of the other subject to link it anywhere..kind of what im feeling now. unexplainable.no links with anything.not fitting into any part of the story.i noe skool just ended and all..but i want it to start again now.hais..im sick of hearing the stuff in my head which causes me to feel sick and sad.shut the friggin hell up.i hate u.sleeping at 3+ and waking up 2 hrs later and its all bacause of u.nothing but u. maybe i shld just lock myself in?probably...
shuo bu shang wei shen me wo bian de hen zhu dongruo ai shang yi ge ren shen me dou hui zhi de qu zuo wo xiang da sheng xuan bu dui ni yi yi bu she lian ge bi ling ju dou cai dao wo xian zai de gan shou he bian de feng zai chui zhe tou fa piao dong qian zhe ni de shou yi zhen mo ming gan dong wo xiang dai ni hui wo de wai po jia yi qi kan zhe ri luo yi zhi dao wo men dou shui zhao
Chorus:
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai ai neng bu neng gou yong yuan dan chun mei you bei ai wo xiang dai ni qi dan che wo xiang he ni kan bang qiu xiang zhe yang mei dan you chang zhe ge yi zhi zou
wo xiang jiu zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou bu fang kai ai ke bu ke yi jian jian dan dan mei you shang hai ni kao zhe wo de jian bangni zai wo xiong kou shui zhao xiang zhe yang de sheng huo wo ai ni ni ai wo xiang jian! jian! dan! dan! ai! xiang jian! jian! dan! dan! ai!
