Saturday, August 20, 2005
cursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecursecurse. my grandma in Taiwan just passed away last night k..and i dont even really noe her lor...so i actually feel bad abt not feeling bad abt the whole thing.and that whole part is shit cuz i dunno wat the hell to do la..so there's a funeral in september for one day...and that is ok..EXCEPT that it is in TAIWAN..so that makes everything NOT OKAY.not that i dont like the country..i think its great..but its on the 4th of September!!!thats a sunday!!and its during the holidays!!but im supposed to have training 1-3-5 during that!goiung to watch netball tournament on 2 and 6..and my chinese oral is on 3!!!so school hols start on saturday next day go taiwan..next day hope to be home?go for training..next day netball tournament..next day training+oral..next day rest...next day training..next day netball tournament..and last day sit home and study(like shit)!!!omg...the whole time is crap!!i dont wanna go to the funeral k!!if i do i mite not even be back till the end of the hols and be gone even BEFORE the hols BEGIN!!:((and i noe family is more important than anything k..but i dont noe my other grandma!!!and i feel badddddd...but still!!!!!!im gonna cry...wat decision am i gonna make??shoot. im cracking..and i predict im gonna hate myself for the shit choice im gonna make...but its a lose-lose situation anyway..so thats the reason why i've been BLOODY pissed for the pass few days..and im really really sorry abt it..ive been giving a few of my friends quite a hard time with all my sudden changes of moods and wierdness..hope u guys understand..there are other problems in my head too.. wont tell and u wont ever noe..its for me to noe and u to not even have heard abt k? my life is more messed up than u think
